Well.. So far my time in the USA hasn't really been all that amazing. Don't get me wrong I have had some really amazing times and met some really great people! Some of whom I hope I can stay in contact with for a very long time. But it seems like now its a never ending trail of bad news and bull shit. I was suppose to go to Virgina beach this coming weekend with Amy and Emma. Amy's boyfriend is in a fraternity and they are having some kinda of formal or something down there. We were all going as a group but we each had a date. Well I don't anymore.. I've been kicked to the curb for my "dates" ex I guess. So now I've already asked for the weekend off and have absolutely nothing to do. Amy and Emma will be in VA beach and I'll be stuck here.. And the girls I know in Annapolis.. well I don't even know what to say... :( Ive already been on my rant about that.
Lately there has been a lot of negativity in my life and the more I think about it the more sorry I feel for myself. I hate it and I'm tired of feeling this way. I never use to be this person. I was happy and optimistic! But now I feel trapped and alone in a completely different country. I wish I just had that one person I could depend on to really be there for me.
So I've decided to try this new thing, I guess more of an old thing. Pretending I'm happy and hoping that eventually it will turn out that I am no longer pretending. I am going to try and be as optimistic as possible and live each day to the fullest. I know its going to take a while to get back to where I was when I first moved to the states. But I hope that one day soon I'll be me again.
I guess that's all for now.
Till next time
E
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