Not a long time!
That's right folks.. my first year is over, finished, finito (sp? lol)!! The year went by so unbelievably fast... Now were on to my second and its off to a bit of a rocky start... the new family is great but my personal life... not so much :( I went through a lot my first year.. I honestly thought that I wouldn't make it through some of it.. but I survived.. for the most part.. might be missing a piece of my heart but it belongs to someone else now. I doubt I'll ever get it back but I think Ive come to terms with that.. or at least i hope so.
Friends now a days are a tricky thing. Remember back in the day when you were 5 or 6 and in kindergarten and all you had to do was share your snack with the girl or boy sitting beside you and you were friends for life? Well I do!! I am still great friends with some of those people I use to share snacks with! And thank god for them.. I don't know where Id be with out them. But making good friends when your an adult has got to be one of the hardest things I've ever done. I've formed a few friendships this year and I honestly thought we'd be great friends till the end but boy was I wrong! Don't get me wrong.. they, for the most part, are great people. I mean yes everyone has their flaws but come on! If you have a problem with someone talk it out.. Don't bitch about it to everyone else and then let those other people tell me that you have a problem with me. And I know what your thinking.. If I think they have a problem with me I should approach them right?!? Well I've tried.. its kinda hard when they ignore you or blow you off. Or when you try to talk to them about something important and they just sit there and stare at you like your speaking a foreign language... I obviously came to you with a problem because I thought we were friends and I thought you could support me. But forget about it! Whats the point in trying to talk to anyone anymore about anything!! Everyone is just worried about whats going on in their lives. I am guilty of this too. Not trying to say I'm perfect.. I am FARRRRR from it. But I, for the most part, think that I am a good listener.. yes i zone out once and a while but who doesn't really?!
I guess what I am trying to say is I wish people would give me a chance and have a little faith in me...
I sure hope my second year is a lot better then my first!
Thats all for now folks,
Till next time
Much love!!
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